2019 in reeview, my life in review

Hi folks!


Good day internet readers...I am doing super great and I hope you are too.


So, 2019 is over and it was a year where I grew leaps and bounds...Boy, I have come along way since that dreadfull 2015 year, the year of my separation. I have gone from a depressed 322 pounds to 4 years later to a new positive charge person and who just found out that he is at the lowest weight he ever been since high school, 270 pounds!!! Yay me!

So that you guys understand, I have always been big. I was born at a whopping weight of 12 pounds and was 23.62 inches in height. Since then I have always been big, until today! This comes after my biggest weight ever was 427 pounds... I had to be weighed on a special scale, now I could be weighed on a normal scale but I am in a wheelchair and cannot stand up. But from 427 to 270, it is amazing and next year will be a great one!!

So yes, I am living proof that change is what you make of it...


Here is wishing you a Happy 2020 full of happiness and a Merry Christmas...


Love you all!

Porto Bello

Hello folks!

I told you I was going to be blogging more. Rightht now I'm blogging from the shopping centre.

Technology it'smazing, I am using voice recognition because I really hate the keyboards on the cell phones they make me feel old.

What am I doing you?

Well it's part of the whole plan of becoming a new me again. I don't want to be on Facebook all my life and as my guy said last night in five years you are going to look back and go like "wow I wasted so much time". So today I have started to make changes again, there's also an old friend of mine on Facebook that keeps on asking me to get help mmm, maybe he's right. I'll just need to readjust my life v reality.

Any food this is probably a short post because I used to not see how much I have everything on a cell phone.

Have a great day folks!

December to remember part II

Good morning folks...

Happy December!

Well, it's the last month of 2019 and how has it going for you? It was rather a roller coaster year for me however it's coming together fine.

I'm still very popular on Facebook although after a conversation with somebody yesterday I realize that I have to get out there again. Interact with normal people, open up again. So I'm finally going to write that novel that I've been working on for so many years. But it's going to be more a philosophical essay since I have always loved philosophy.

And I'm getting my place ready for Amy, my friend from Facebook that's coming over for the holidays with her daughter. It's going to be awesome! Her daughter has never seen snow so for me, it's going to be fun seeing someone that looks at something that I don't like magically. I'm going to go buy some Christmas stuff to decorate my apartment, I will make this the Christmas that changed me. Who knows, I might even invite my brother's over to my place, it's a completely new world out there people... I have become a host for events and I don't know how I feel about that.

Anywho I wish you all a lovely December and as part of my stepping back into society, I've decided to blog more often. So either way, it's beneficial for all of us for me to get back into reality.


Well, I have a good one folks and hope to see you soon again!

2019 Was all growing pains

This is my blog post for the year.

The Mormon priest.

This year I had a couple of meetings with a Mormon priest, just to talk. He told me about his beliefs and I told him about mine. Obviously, there was friction when we first met the second time was better. He forced me to have lunch with him at subways. Needless to say, I had to oblige, and what follows was an eye-opening confession.

Apparently, he had left the priesthood, and I had a lot to do with it he said. Basically, my beliefs over everything being alive overtook his ideas of a single God taking care of this world, he decided it was time to quit after 15 years of priesthood.

Nice coin a******, you just took out a priest from his religion.p

The cannabis factor.

Since Canada legalized the usage of recreational marijuana come out I have been doing quite a lot recently. I am not smoking, I am eating it and therefore the effects last much longer. the benefits of it have been that I have lost a staggering amount of weight, everybody who comes in the morning that hasn't seen me for a while is always asking the same question: "Are you sick?" I always tell them my story on what's that medical solution to my new look and they are pleasantly surprised because THC, in general, will basically make you hungry and I am having a different side effect from it. Needless to say, I am happy with THC!

2020 is going to be my year.

So in a nutshell 2019 was a growing year in 2020 it's going to be an amazing year! I will be moving away from this place that I have been living here for like 13 years and I will be moving to a smaller place seeing that I have no longer a wife and my kids well, they have grown up they are full-fledged adults now; and I'm very proud of them. One of them has a boyfriend and I'm pretty sure she's going to make me a grandfather sooner or later, the other one is very responsible in her life, going to work and studying at the same time; I am very proud of you girls!


next year I will be talking to you from a different place, a different city, a different life.


So in the meantime, I wish you all a Happy 2020 full of blessings left and right and that you enjoy the rest of your life...

Let me love you...

Hey...


How are you doing, how is your November?

It’s been a roller coaster of a ride in FB….

People are weird, they get upset, they

...You fat bastard...

call you names, they think you’re rich...name it and I have seen it now that people are visiting my site in large quantities...and they all want to chat and get mad if you don’t talk to them. My cell is going off at 2 am because someone in Africa, it is always Africa, wants to chat. If I don’t answer, I get a text asking why I did not pick up the phone… I don’t know you, I can do fuck all and don’t need to explain to anyone…


So enjoy my page and don’t talk to me...we will get along just fine...

*Magic*

Hello, y'all...


Three more days and vamoose!


November, I feel that life is rushing past me so fast it's not even funny. So, I been hearing a shitload of romantic music and feeling extremely positive...it's like a cockroach dies I will hold a funeral. I have never felt this way, I guess there is a first time for everything...

Did I tell you I am going to move?


Well, yes; but not yet. Seeing that everyone has left i am in a 5 and a half flat....meaning 3 rooms, living room, kitchen and bathroom....2 bathrooms. As I mentioned briefly yesterday, I will be moving near my brother's place where,  i think, will be spending my lasts days...yay!


Back to the river of beliefs....

Can't wait to see what's behind door number 3

Hello!

Good day to you all, happy last week of October....2  moths before 2019 finishes and I can't wait to see what's behind door number 3!

How is my life?

Living the dream folks, new life,m new woman...happy happy, joy joy. that person that was so miserable a couple of years ago because his wife did not love him and left him? Gone! I am a new me today folks!!! it is true that life changes in a second, one moment you're in a dark place, the next you need glasses it's so fucking bright! Well? I am there and I am super happy... I hope this happens to you too...

and that's the way the cookie crumbles...

Have a great day an a happy winter/summer...

October and everything after

Good day folks!



How are you doing?


So, October’s almost finished. And I haven't blogged for the longest time I guess, but I have time now.


This is my life now people:



As of today, I am now leaving alone!

It is a change, there are pros and cons for it. I don't see much TV, I quit the group on Facebook which took a lot of my time and now I'm basically lost... And winter's coming! We all know that I won't be able to go out most of the winter and I'll have to wait until next march to be able to go out there. Also, I have applied to the government for a low rent housing unit near my brother's place, about an hour away from here. It will take some time for them to accept me.

Besides that, my October was a normal one and I'm now also I said waiting for hell to come by me…


And that has been my October in a nutshell!



Here's hoping you guys had a good one and that your winter will be a fabulous one!

The Lunch that changed my life

Hello folks!


How’s life treating you?


I am having a blast at this single/solitary life! I can go and come as I pleased, I have no reason to give anyone about my actions. You don’t like it? There’s the door! I like it! And the bonus?

I can meet up with my girls whenever I want! Their mom and I did a great job with them. Fully independent, hard workers, studious...I love them and say thank you to the Universe for having given me the pleasure and honour to be their dad. Now they are calling me for lunch get-togethers and have adult conversations. A long way when I had to teach them French and Maths! Real proud of them…


Off to start my day!

TTYL people….

Time Warp again!

Hello there!


Happy September people…


So what is new with me? Solo flying people, SOLO!

My girls, their grandmother, and their mom, everybody a la chingada! It was scheduled, and this is the first step to independence for them and their mother called me this morning to confirm. Apparently;y, their mother said that they are taking care of their own individual shit; they don’t care about anyone else problems. I told her that from there is just a stepping stone to “Adios folks”! She sadly agreed. Me? You have to understand, when my ex and I split up she was kind enough to leave me the girls, so I am used to this loneliness; she’s not.

It is a new era in my life and I am super excited as this is only the beginning; Kirkland is next!

Take care Fam….


PS Love you all!

KMN please....argh....

Hello!


Glad to see you all…

How am I doing?

Well, I have become, for some sick reason, popular on FB. In the space of a weekend, I went from 67 friends to 2000! How is still a mystery to me...I thought they were from the group of rejects I belong to but no, those guys know my name; these one are always “what’s your name?” “Where are you from?” “Are you single?” Gets boring, I got 20 chat tabs going on and I don’t really talk to them because they are all not there for me… I got tired of a lady last night and when she asked me where I was from I told her Mexico and she immediately said it was too far...bitch, Canada and Mexico are neighbours of the USA ...geography! Another day I had had it with a Mormon and I told her that I was from Earth...sigh… And when I cut them off by telling them I got to go and buy groceries, they all want me to buy them an Itune card or for the classy ladies: Amazon card. Seriously?? We just met, I don’t know you and you don’t even ask politely “could you, would you, please” seriously.. There is also the sad case when they immediately ask you out because you are the love of their life...bitch, you don’t even know my name…


Sigh...sigh...sigh…


Maybe I’m the problem….


Have a great end of August...

That forgetting, embellishing, lying machine...

Hello!


I know 2nd post this week...are you dying?


Well, it’s raining and I feel emotional...maybe since I joined the group has made me soft and an emotional fruitcake. I cannot bear this feeling, I am at a loss of words. I want to interact with the group, but I have to force myself and they need cheering up. How are you guys? Me, I feel trapped!

I don’t know if like I want to scream, cry, kill myself….everything bad, I am feeling it today. I mean, it’s this life? Just breath and roll around like an ant? Yeah my brother is right I was given a rotten hand and it sucks! Freaking Universe had given me a normal life and “BOOM!” takes it all away from me. I should have never survived my death!

Thanks for listening...

Dear Abby

Hello!


Happy July!


Just came back from a stroll and maybe I shouldn't have gone; humidity and MS don’t go well together.

So, I’ve been posting memes (a lot) on this group of people wi0th emotional and all sorts in general… And I love it. What am I doing there? It’s like I don’t know but by making them feel better (I hope) they are making me feel better. I can say that I see things differently than before, more positive outlook; I am happy and in love…with me!


I guess the studies are right, it seems happiness starts at 50.


Happy trails folks…


Ps….short I know but I’m dying

That's life!

Hello!


I know, “WTF Chuck?!”. But it’s just that is summer and I am out all day and I help these people like me that are going through emotional problems and since I feel I’m doing better, I help others.

So what has been happening with my life? Lots!

Remember I am living with my girls? Well, about to make history here….I am downgrading! Going from a 5 ½ to a  3 ½! Rent wise I am dropping over 500 smackers! That's just rent, there is electricity, food, heating… it will be around $700 bucks saved every month! It’s not me, they want to move with their mom in her new place… More power to them! I am slowly shutting down shop and I will go out with a bang!!

That's what is happening


Take care folks

May and everything rosy...

Hello!


Another day in paradise folks!


Had pancakes for breakfast today….with PB & J…. I like that mixture on pancake batter rather than bread. So, a third of the year is done and now we wait for Summer while the southern part goes to slumber… Been there, done that, we’ll do it again.

So April is gone and here comes may…. Birthdays, spring/summer; let the good times roll. I cannot wait to see what this year is going to be like; I’m excited. Right now I’m debating whether to go out in the rain or just enjoy the great indoor….mmmm….what to do...what to do…


Maybe I will straddle along to buy something sweet…. I have a big ol’ sweet tooth! I love chocolate, danishes, anything sweet! Of course, my diabetes does not agree but THC has come to the rescue. Thanks to me having taken THC (Indica) gummies and RSO oil, my sugar is now officially under control. I am now a firm believer that marijuana is a viable medical option.



Right, off I go to enjoy my solitude…


Take care people!

Tidbits about my April

Hello!


Here we are saying Adios Aprilos!



No, that is not how you say it but it rhymes….

You talking to me?!

So what is new with you? With me?! It might be in my head but I have fallen head over hills with this woman; a beautiful woman, full of life and character. I bet must of you are wondering “who, what where, when, why?” right now, but in my defense: It’s been 3 years guys; I need love from someone…. I know that maybe I will never meet her seeing the circumstances but it’s always nice to be special to someone…

Other than that…...mmm…. I went to jail!

Facebook jail, yeah! Somebody bitch about 2 posts I had shared and wham! 7 days in the slammer. Well there was a small revolt in the group where it happened and I got lots of requests to become friends with them; I did, I’m not bad, I just look like that…


Ok, aurevoir les mecs…


A+

The precautious Canuck

Hello!



Middle of freaking April already, what a buzz! Yup, this year seems to be flying, 2020 is there, right there! Fudge….. I think a physicist should come up with a formula to describe why time flies faster as you get older….

So how have I been?!

Yeah....no thank you!

Okay, going out more often since the snow has melted. But being the precautious Canuck that I am, I keep my winter coat on call in case of a freakish snowstorm like the one of 2016 that, I was reminded by my kid, happened in the month of May; may!!!?? Go ahead, Google it, I’ll wait. We are all happy campers here, but most immigrants find it nice and wonderful for a couple of years then we just get tired of the cocaine powder everywhere and for sooooo long! And I consider myself a hard cord Canuck since I’ve been here 40+ years now.

What else, what else…

I went to the restaurant with 2 of my brothers yesterday, I hate 5 plates of food. Manly, it was brunch food. Breakfast with the possibilities to eat lunch food too; such as sushi. Yum, I had a good time.

1 of 5 people

Any hoot, have an awesome day everyone!


See you in the funny papers...

April and everything green

Hey there!


Good April to you and yours….

I got the place to myself today as my kids are out ad bout….It’s a good thing to be single adult dad or mom…..Yas lawd!! What are my plans for today? Well, since you asked… Right after I post this I will hit the road to buy a galette! What is that you ask? Well, it is a giant oatmeal cookie that I got hooked on since I’m a kid… I got to have one…..cue the photo




Also, since spring is here and I can go out, I am out quite a lot. Plus, it helps me forget the new woman in my cyber life….I think I have fallen but know full well I will never meet her; alas one can pray….

Later folks, happy April.

The dark in me

Many times I had always thought about ending all because of this, because of that. Then I heard that movie quote that I thought was meant for me:


I’ve got to keep breathing because tomorrow the sun will rise, and who knows what the tide will bring


It was a game changer!
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Hello!


It's one of those days when I was putting my old photos in order and then, out of the blue, I was attacked by memories! Not fair Universe, I said. I mean, put me in a wheelchair, destroy my health and now you want tears?

Not supposed to end like this.

Thus the pre-blog text. When I was younger, I had crazy ideas about suicide and thank you, anybody, for listening and stopping me for going through with that. However, I feel I am wasting space and air. But then again, I do not know hat the future holds and therefore must be content with whatever leftover remain in my table.


Hey, happy April.


Take care folks!

Show me where it hurts.

Hello!


Last days of March and we are in full Spring mode!

So what have I been up to?


Well, I have taken an active part in a FB private group where we share sex stories….. Okay, no. It’s a group where people try and get help for whatever moral issue they are going through. Seeing what I went through, I think I have the skills to help others feel positive again. I try to help them by sharing positive memes, quotes or jokes to make them feel better at least only for a while.

Today, I am taking a break to write to you guys….


Aaaand, seeing that I can go out now, I will surely stumble onto an interesting folktale.

In the meantime, have yourself a great April full of fun. I know I will…



Till next month folks.


Keep your eyes on the stars, maybe you’ll see me there...

The Bhagavad Gita post....

Hello!


Boy, February is gone! This year is passing fast, Spring is here; fuck.

How was my February? Nonchalant, borderline boring. Last time I went out was February 2nd to celebrate the birthday of my nephew, my wheelchair fucked again and a couple of technicians came to repair it; can’t wait for my new chair….


And today? MARCH!!!


It is a sunny day, cold, anxious in welcoming back spring in 20 days; 20! Although I was secluded to my home all this time, I felt winter flew by so fast it’s not even funny! And what am I doing now, um?

Bhagavad Gita! is a 700-verse Sanskrit scripture that is part of the Hindu epic Mahabharata (chapters 23–40 of Bhishma Parva).

Why? Why not!? If Oppenheimer read it and quoted it as the first human Atomic bomb went off…

Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds


20 days people, 20 days!!!


Take care folks!

Imaginary February

Hello folks!


Welcome to my month. It has been really cold around here, something about a polar vortex or aliens; don’t know much about it…

Believe or not, I haven’t gone out of my home since January 9th when I had my wheelchair appointment. I am not missing it since the -30c does not motivate me enough and neither does the two mini storms that dumped about 25cm of snow, but I’m not complaining. The thing is that tomorrow I will go out to celebrate my nephew's birthday. Yup, it’s the Aquarius time of the year when five birthdays are celebrated; the first one was done, now is the second one…..followed by me! Yaaaaaay!


Any hoot just wanted to wish you all a fabulous February full of positive things in your life.



Take care….


PS If this post doesn’t sound like the old me it is because of the ingestion of THC into my body…. I curse the teenage me for not having discovered it 35 years ago! And thank you Canada for legalizing it….

2019 With a vengeance...

Hello!


Happy belated New Year!



Sorry, I took a while to write a post, but in my defense: I was lazy!

There isn’t much to write about, snow is on the floor so me going out? Meh, not happening! But the last outing I did was to my wheelchair people, and they gave me the news that come this Spring/Summer I’m getting a new wheelchair! YAY me!

Apparently, there is a golden rule to which the government is adamant about: when there aren’t more parts available for the chair, it must be replaced with a new one. So, I am getting a new wheelchair because parts aren’t available for my chair. So, YAY again. New technology, new tilt mechanism, new and improved restrictions :( ....


Other that?! Nothing extremely bored out of my skull…..


Anyways, happy 2019 to you all!


TTYL...