Philosophical afternoon

Hello!

Before anything, Happy MLK day America...completly forgot, sorry!
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I had a philosophical afternoon today, it all had to do with the first post I did this morning about the miracle oil my daughter would like to spread all over my legs so I can walk again. I got a comment from my cousin regarding this leading me to analyze myself and my posts in general, yes I have lost faith in many things and this might be causing my posts to give off a "fuck it" allure. As I said I have lost faith in many things but I have not lost faith in my daughters, if my daughter believes that she can make me walk by rubbing oil from St. Joseph oratory then I believe in my daughter and should her dream falter I will find an excuse so she doesn't loses her faith.

Remember I am the one who was going to be a priest, my faith was rock solid back then but as I have grown and travel through life seeing the good and bad, the right and the wrong, my faith has taken a tumble and I don't know if it's good or if it's bad. I know what faith can do, my cousin is right it can move mountains, but at this moment I have lost it because it can't even make me move my legs. My mother also tells me the same thing on how I have lost my faith and now I'm passing this along to my daughters, that's not true just this weekend I was letting my daughter know on my religion and all of its ins and outs. I want them to know that if you have faith you can accomplish many things and as I said, I may have lost my faith but I don't want my daughters to lose theirs.

Maybe one day I will look back at this and state how foolish I was by not believing and how all I needed was a push that my daughter gave me. Life is not luck, we are here for a reason and everything that happens to us,  happens to us for a reason. I just have to find the reason for me of being where I am and how I am.


Have a great day people!