Hello!
Good day people, hope you're all having a wonderful day.
So I got a little medical update for you today, I know I don't like to talk about it because I might jinx it. But my right arm, my right leg and my torso seems to be getting a bit stronger. I can now officially give you the finger with both hands a thing I couldn't do in the past. This is a big accomplishment for me, here's the story.
Back a while ago, one of the first things I showed my neurologist was that I couldn't do the finger. It's true! He looked at me funny and and brushed my comments aside. But it has been two years since I couldn't do the middle finger, flip the bird. So for the longest time if I wanted to insult somebody I had to vocally say it: F* you, F* it, F* me.... F. F.. F.. F.!
So there was obviously some tension there, I would pick up fights left and right. So I started to insult people in my head: fuck you, fuck them, fuck all of you... This wasn't good it wasn't relieving the tension and the people who were doing something to me would be getting away with it. So two days ago, I flipped the bird! At first I did it when I was alone, not bringing attention to it in case it was temporarily and would soon go away. But then, I did it again! Then suddenly, I was using my two hands: fuck you! The tension was suddenly alleviated. Now I can silently show the finger to somebody near or far. I don't have to scream or think bad thoughts. I can basically show him or her the finger while not facing them. I will be able to relieve the tension that's been building up inside of me and perhaps maybe smile about it.
Think of all the possibilities I have now, I can point at something with my middle finger. I can use my middle finger to tap on the keyboard, like now! I'm a free man, this is something that I'm going to bring up with my neurologist next time I see him. Maybe show him the finger.
Also on a minor note, today while having a bath I was able to turn more at ease in the bed. I know, I know, this is not as big as giving you the finger but it's still a positive improvement in in my illness.
Happy days are here again!
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