Nakedness of life

Hello!


So this morning was another existentialistic morning. My wife was talking to a customer whose mother suffers from MS and it's living in a long-term facility. Then one thing led to another and suddenly my wife is moving back to Mexico.

Now don't go partying yet, she basically believes that once I am ready for a long-term disability facility, due to the cost of this, she will have no other option but to move back to her country of origin. Come on! It is true that a long term disability place could be expensive, I never looked into it. Maybe because my brain still thinks I'm healthy and young and strong and blah blah blah... I then thought about it for a second and I have said this before in my posts, I am actually in a place where most of you will get there eventually. And you too will need help, I wish you all the best and hopefully you will be as independent as possible.

Now I told her that that we were together and who knew if I needed a place like that. But then she said something else that is very relevant to our relationship, what happens when she gets tired of taking care of me? Riiiing! Someone's at the door!

This is true. Taking care of people is rather demanding, especially if you have to do this after work. I now acknowledge the fact that I will eventually require the services of such a place.

Life sucks doesn't it?

I now understand her point of view, while I'm with them I can pull my own weight economically. But once my disability gets harder and harder on them, I will have to move out and the economically will follow me. Leaving her to mend for herself.

It is a rather sad fact of life. I don't know what to tell her to make her feel better. I wish I had a normal life where I would grow old with her and we would both slowly but surely fade away, after a very long time.

The fact is that I am in a place where there are lots of questions and sadly I know all the answers to them. And yes I will eventually move out on my own to a long-term care facility where eventually I will fade away, sorry.