Suicide

Chill, nobody is dying here, nobody is depressed. I just wanted to capture your attention here and blog about this subject and what I have seen throughout my stay on this planet. So no humans will be hurt during this exercise. Having said that:

Hello


So today I will touch the sombre subject of suicide. There are many reasons out there why people contemplate, try or succeed at taking their life away. Mental disorders are at the forefront of this phenomenon -depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, alcoholism and drugs-There is also financial issues and other situations: religion, honour, the meaning of life (Really????).

I fully understand people who have mental disorders, we must look out for them; try to help them if you can. But I really don't get other reasons why you would try to beat life at its own game. I have seen some incidents were the person has succeeded in taking their life away and it is very sad.


High school

When I was in secondary 1 or 2, there was a kid that was fun to hang around with. Suddenly he stopped going to school. At the beginning there were the usual questions: what happened, where is he, when is he coming back. I never got answers to these questions so I forgot about him. A few weeks later he reappeared. He wasn't the same, he was quiet and he didn't say much. Then I heard the rumours that his family had gone through the suicide of one of the kids. It hit me, especially that it was a kid, don't know how old he was but at that age I didn't think that you could be so in the dark. I heard that they found a black board were it was written:

Life is a game and I am tired of playing.

Wow, if this is true or not my hearth when out to this kid and the whole situation was traumatizing to me. It's been 20+ years and I still remember it. This was my first encounter with suicide.

So this episode was brushed aside and I went onto college were there was another situation that I went through but this time I knew a bit more of the facts that brought this person to the brink of annihilation.



College

I was going through life doing the college thing when I was interrupted by destiny again. It appeared that one of my friends had tried to commit suicide. After many discussions it was concluded that this person lived in a very "strict" environment. I am happy to say that this person was not successful and now lives a very normal and happy life. I don't say much here, I don't know if this person wants privacy or not.

Happy ending?? Not quite.


Mini-me

After many, many years, I got to know this kid that worked with me. He was fun, we joked around and I even gave him a nickname that stuck with him throughout his working career: mini-me. He was a blast. During work time related crunches I use joke and tell him that if he was to climb up a bridge I was such a good friend I would push him. It was all fun and laughs. One day that I stayed home I got a call were they informed me that mini-me had taken his life. I was dumbfounded. This was an only child, the mother was devastated I went to the funeral and went to a psychologist to try and come to terms with his death. After a while I found out that he had killed himself over a girl. Apparently the parents of the girl did not approve of the relationship.

I don't believe that you should kill yourself over another person or a situation. I believe life to be like a checker board that can go from black to white in a second (very masonic, no?). Maybe I haven't lived what they have gone through, maybe I don't get it. Why would you kill yourself knowing full well that you are going to kick the bucket anyways? I am not suicidal, I don't think I can lift a gun now; the gun would probably fall of my hands, discharge itself and I would probably be accused of 1st degree or something.

This is what I have seen so far and every time I remember the persons that passed away, I am sadden because not only did they cut short their stay here but they left it in shambles; the places and faces that were part of their lives.

My thoughts on suicide? I say be patient and try to see life as a long journey where you don't know what could happen. And if you still feel like killing yourself, take the old fashion way out: live life (you're gonna die anyways).