Bummer

Hello

Well today I'm gonna touch the subject of MS.....I know I know, AGAIN?? Yeah well during winter I'm cocooned and all these tragedies with people that got MS come knocking at my door. I promise that when summer comes I will write about the bird and the bees.

Keep in mind that I don't partake in their thoughts about MS being a devastating illness. I am sorry that they got MS and yes your life does a 180 turn, but I think you have to be positive in life and enjoy it as much as you can.

This morning my lovely wife was telling me about a customer's mom that has MS an is at a nursing home because she can't talk, move, feed herself. That sucks, right?? Yes, yes it does and I wouldn't like to be there. I start asking questions about this lady; it seems that she's been there for a while because the husband couldn't deal with the physical aspect of the illness. I agree MS requires a lot of help from others.

Then it hit me, can she blink her eyes??? I told my wife the story of the guy who had an accident and became a veggie...The guy wrote a book by blinking his freaking eyes!!! There is always someone worst off than you and manages to get ahead. I was informed that this lady couldn't remain focus therefore she couldn't converse with her eyes either. I didn't know what else to tell my wife; I don't know how worry she gets by seeing a mirror.

I know that ever since I've been like this, it has always been: What level are you at?? I dunno, the one where you can't freaking walk or move?????? Apparently there are different levels of MS; you get worst and worst and worst. I have talked it over with my wife and have come to the conclusion that when she can no longer take care of me, I would quietly and gracefully go to a nursing home. I think I got like 60 years to go, will probably bury her. I don't know I am really positive about this even if I am not a very active MS person. I like staying at home, writing, listening to music, thinking, playing...doing f_all and I'm happy! My wife MS people seem to be doom and gloom and I personally know 2 cases where the people are living very "active" life with MS.

So where am I going to fit???

I don't know, but I was dragged out of a good game of Yutopia to write this, bummer...