One of those mornings...

Hello!


Arggh.... good something to you!


Freaking microphone, I just spent the last half hour trying to fix it so I can do this stupid post!


Well the reverse count is on, something like T-3 days and counting before the girls come back from their vacation in Las Vegas. After this they will come, sleep and wake up early in the morning next day because it's off to summer camp. When they come back, they will have to be getting ready to go back to school in a couple weeks. They had a good summer this year, not as thrilling as mine when I was kid but still it was a good summer.

This morning I woke up in one of those moods where I'm thinking a lot about different things, everything is up for grabs, the only ones that are safe are my daughters other than that I tend to think about everything, reevaluate where I'm at. is it worth it? is this really love? I think too much. I will not go into details but I think, and this is just me, that maybe I need some sort of change, any change, I am fed up of just existing, I am fed up of what people want me to do and not what I want to do, I'm just fed up. Yeah I know you're probably thinking that I'm a weird guy that has nothing better to do than to blog you with my angst and my bitching, you try staying at home 24/7 for four years and tell me how you end up. I wish I was able to do stuff on my own, I wish I was able to participate with a family that doesn't seem to be there, I wish I would matter to somebody... In all honesty I don't think I do, I really think that MS is like solitary confinement that you must endure until you cry "uncle", sometimes I wonder if I would've stayed in my country would I have had the same outcome with my life. I guess there's nothing I can do but wait...


Have a good day folks!